note: I’ve been writing this over several long, sleepless nights so pay no attention to the posting date as that just represents when I got around to finishing it.
I’ve struggled with insomnia since I was a child. I can remember being six years old and counting the cars that passed on a distant street. I had this fear of being the last one awake. When no one in my house was awake, I felt the most alone I had ever felt in my six years. That feeling still lingers, I can call it up if I think hard enough.
At some point I got permission to listen to the radio at night. It changed everything. The DJs of 101.1 WCBS-FM out of New York City put me to sleep every night. Somehow, just as I had irrationally feared being the only one awake, voices coming from across the river irrationally soothed me. I’m not a psychologist and this isn’t a psychology blog, but somehow that connection to someone else who was awake was enough to relax me to sleep.
On Friday, June 5, 2005, WCBS-FM 101.1 went Jack FM without any warning. Long-renowned DJs were unceremoniously let go. Here’s the wikipedia account of “the day the music died”:
In a shocking and controversial move, at 5:00 PM Eastern Daylight Time on Friday, June 3, 2005, WCBS-FM 101.1 flipped formats from Oldies to the new “Jack FM,” and is self-identifying under that term. After playing the Frank Sinatra song “Summer Wind,” WCBS-FM listeners heard 30 minutes of stunting with movie liners, clips of various songs, sound effects, Frank Sinatra’s version of “Theme from New York, New York”, and more sound effects including songs with the name “Jack” (such as “Hit The Road Jack”) and having the “Jack” faded out. Then at 5PM a voice came on stating “Why don’t we just play what we want? I mean, there’s a whole world of music out there.” Then a little introduction was played which was followed by the announcing of the new station name. “Welcome to the NEW 101.1 Jack FM, playing what we want.” After that, the Beastie Boys’ “Fight for Your Right” was played, becoming the first song played under the new “Jack” format.
There are many reasons to get angry about this “Jack” format. Decades of loyal listeners cast aside in the name of the almighty advertising dollar. The old song and dance: scores of listeners are great, when they’re the right demographic. The top companies want that golden demographic and the oldies format just wasn’t cutting it. A family of DJ’s and listeners cast away with the flick of a switch. 101.1 mainstay “Cousin” Brucie Morrow likened the change to “replacing Yankee Stadium with a fruit stand.”
But on long nights like this, all I feel is sadness. I think about a little girl with messy brown hair and blue eyes curled up in her bed with a portable radio, scanning the dial for companionship to get her through. All she’ll find soon is a signal programmed in Texas and bounced around the country with no human involvement whatsoever. She goes back to counting cars and struggling against fear in silence.