I was all ready to go back to work today. Here it was, three weeks after I was admitted to the hospital, a full two weeks after being discharged. I was ready to get right back into it after taking baby steps last week. Then, around noon, I felt that now-familiar shake and twinge. I was crashing and crashing fast. Energy sapped, hitting the proverbial wall, as it were. So here I am, back on the couch. I refuse to turn on the TV, though! I’m done with daytime TV!
Bah. I mean, i know half days are better than no days at all, and I got things done in my half day, but I’m just so tired of being tired. Up and down, better and worse, I just want to be back to normal. I’m terribly impatient. Even my second or third day in the hospital after, y’know, the whole “you were an hour from death” part, I was annoyed that I was still feeling lousy and sometimes felt like I was getting worse.
I think I sometimes think I’m superhuman or something. Then something like this reminds me that, no, I’m just a regular old human.
July 10th, 2006 at 3:07 pm
You’re not regular - you’re extra special and you need to take care of yourself! But I understand the feeling of being mad at your body for not cooperating with you. Take it easy, you just did battle at the brink of death. You deserve to take it slow without the guilt and frustration. You need some good books to read. I wish I had some to offer. Have you seen the UHA book blog? http://uhsummer.blogspot.com/ there might be some good suggestions there. Take it easy!
July 10th, 2006 at 6:47 pm
Oh, face it. You wanted to see what’s going on on Young and the Restless!
Just kidding. I hate when life reminds us that we are, in fact, human. It’s a big, annoying, obnoxious slap in the face. But I guess what you can take from it is the lesson that all you can really do is take it one step at a time, one day at a time, and you will be better. I promise. The worst thing you can do is try to push yourself too much, and then you’ll be right back where you started. And I think we’ve had enough drama in the marketing department for now, thankyouverymuch! : )